“I shall call him Squishy. And he shall be mine. And he shall be MY Squishy.” — Finding Nemo
“It’s a veg-e-ta-ble.” — My Blue Heaven
"Nine million terrorists in the world and I gotta kill one with feet smaller than my sister." - Die Hard
"Just a minute - just a minute. Now, hold on, Mr. Potter. You're right when you say my father was no businessman. I know that. Why he ever started this cheap, penny-ante Building and Loan, I'll never know. But neither you nor anyone else can say anything against his character, because his whole life was - why, in the twenty-five years since he and Uncle Billy started this thing, he never once thought of himself. Isn't that right, Uncle Billy? He didn't save enough money to send Harry to school, let alone me. But he did help a few people get out of your slums, Mr. Potter, and what's wrong with that? Why - here, you're all businessmen here. Doesn't it make them better citizens? Doesn't it make them better customers? You - you said - what'd you say a minute ago? They had to wait and save their money before they even ought to think of a decent home. Wait? Wait for what? Until their children grow up and leave them? Until they're so old and broken down that they... Do you know how long it takes a working man to save five thousand dollars? Just remember this, Mr. Potter, that this rabble you're talking about... they do most of the working and paying and living and dying in this community. Well, is it too much to have them work and pay and live and die in a couple of decent rooms and a bath? Anyway, my father didn't think so. People were human beings to him. But to you, a warped, frustrated old man, they're cattle. Well, in my book he died a much richer man than you'll ever be." - It's a Wonderful Life
Monday, May 19, 2014
Friday, July 9, 2010
I stole this from Cal who stole it from Sunday Stealing, and I'm posting it on Friday.
1. The phone rings; who don't you want it to be?
I hate the phone. I hate talking on the phone. I don't want it to be the police telling me bad news.
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Depends on my mood.
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Talker.
4. What was the last compliment that someone gave you?
Nice tattoo
5. Do you play the lottery?
Not really. Every now and again I do, but not as frequent as I should if I want to win something.
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, who would you want with you?
Daniel Boone
7. Do you like to ride horses?
I was thrown from a pony on a "live merry-go-round" when I was about 6 or so - haven't been near one since.
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
We had a town camp where you could do sports, arts and crafts, swimming or buying a snack at the shack!
9. What is your favorite party game?
I don't go to parties.
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
Well I'm married so I wouldn't be interested...but, if he was on my "5" list, hell yeah.
11. When was the last time that you lied?
It's all a blur.
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
I was raised catholic and I'm married to an atheist. I have no idea what I am.
13. If you have a S/O, who pursued who? If not, do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Hmmm...since he was scared spitless when we met, I'm going to say I was the pursuer!
14. Use six words to describe yourself.
Short, fat, curly, humorous, friendly, depressed
15. Name a song that could make you cry?
It used to be that song from Berlin because that was going to be "our" song at my first wedding, but he died first.
16. Are you pleased with your education?
I graduated high school and wish I didn't take that "year off" which has turned into 28 years...
17. How do you feel about gun control?
No guns in my house. I don't care what you do in yours.
18. If your house was on fire, what thing would be the first thing you grabbed?
Family
19. How often do you have a romantic weekend?
What is that?
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Mostly the past and the future...the present is what it is.
21. What was the last adult magazine that you have read?
I don't even remember.
22. What are you told about your eyes?
Man, those are some dark eyes!
23. How tall is just right?
Not my height. I could've gone for another 5 - 6 inches or so. That would've been nice.
24. Where is your dream house located?
Wherever Joe is.
25. Do you have a secret fetish?
Yeah, but it's a secret.
26. Have you tried bourbon? If yes, what type?
Nope.
27. Have you ever seen a male or female stripper?
Only on TV.
28. When was the last time you were at TGI Fridays?
A few weeks ago.
29. When was the last time you were at Church?
When I went to a funeral - I think for my Uncle Amos.
30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
Home to work.
31. What was your favorite job?
Working with my Dad.
33. Bud is hosting Thursday Thunks this week. Will you play?
Who is Bud and what is Thursday Thunks?
34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
Neither? I'm probably adopted. I do kinda look like my Memere on occasion.
35. Who was the last person that you showered with (it's okay to leave out the name)?
Joe.
1. The phone rings; who don't you want it to be?
I hate the phone. I hate talking on the phone. I don't want it to be the police telling me bad news.
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Depends on my mood.
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Talker.
4. What was the last compliment that someone gave you?
Nice tattoo
5. Do you play the lottery?
Not really. Every now and again I do, but not as frequent as I should if I want to win something.
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, who would you want with you?
Daniel Boone
7. Do you like to ride horses?
I was thrown from a pony on a "live merry-go-round" when I was about 6 or so - haven't been near one since.
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
We had a town camp where you could do sports, arts and crafts, swimming or buying a snack at the shack!
9. What is your favorite party game?
I don't go to parties.
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
Well I'm married so I wouldn't be interested...but, if he was on my "5" list, hell yeah.
11. When was the last time that you lied?
It's all a blur.
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
I was raised catholic and I'm married to an atheist. I have no idea what I am.
13. If you have a S/O, who pursued who? If not, do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Hmmm...since he was scared spitless when we met, I'm going to say I was the pursuer!
14. Use six words to describe yourself.
Short, fat, curly, humorous, friendly, depressed
15. Name a song that could make you cry?
It used to be that song from Berlin because that was going to be "our" song at my first wedding, but he died first.
16. Are you pleased with your education?
I graduated high school and wish I didn't take that "year off" which has turned into 28 years...
17. How do you feel about gun control?
No guns in my house. I don't care what you do in yours.
18. If your house was on fire, what thing would be the first thing you grabbed?
Family
19. How often do you have a romantic weekend?
What is that?
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Mostly the past and the future...the present is what it is.
21. What was the last adult magazine that you have read?
I don't even remember.
22. What are you told about your eyes?
Man, those are some dark eyes!
23. How tall is just right?
Not my height. I could've gone for another 5 - 6 inches or so. That would've been nice.
24. Where is your dream house located?
Wherever Joe is.
25. Do you have a secret fetish?
Yeah, but it's a secret.
26. Have you tried bourbon? If yes, what type?
Nope.
27. Have you ever seen a male or female stripper?
Only on TV.
28. When was the last time you were at TGI Fridays?
A few weeks ago.
29. When was the last time you were at Church?
When I went to a funeral - I think for my Uncle Amos.
30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
Home to work.
31. What was your favorite job?
Working with my Dad.
33. Bud is hosting Thursday Thunks this week. Will you play?
Who is Bud and what is Thursday Thunks?
34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
Neither? I'm probably adopted. I do kinda look like my Memere on occasion.
35. Who was the last person that you showered with (it's okay to leave out the name)?
Joe.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Monster MeMe
Choose to answer all, part or none at all on your site. Let me know you have done it so I can visit your blog and see for myself.
1.FULLNAME?
Nancy Ann Kennedy Mello
2.NICKNAME(S)?
Nance, Mom, Raven
3.BIRTHPLACE?
Worcester, MA
4.WEBSITE
You are there
5.FAVORITE SALAD DRESSING?
Catalina
6.FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Fudge Swirl
7.FUTURE CAREER GOALS?
Finish working here, retire.
8.PROBABLE CAREER?
Finish working here, retire.
9.FAVORITE FOOD?
Pizza, nachos, chicken fingers from FoodWorks, chicken fajita roll up at Applebee's.
10.FAVORITE DRINK? (Non-alcoholic)
Diet caffeine-free soda
11.FAVORITE SCHOOL SUBJECT?
Back then it was called Geography!
12.FAVORITE SCHOOL ACTIVITY?
Journalism (favorite teacher: Ms. Herman)
13.LEAST FAVORITE SCHOOL SUBJECT?
Geometry (I had to 'withdraw' because I just couldn't get it)
14.LEAST FAVORITE SCHOOL ACTIVITY?
Religious education
15.WHAT DO YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOUR TOWN?
I grew up here, it's what I know.
16.WHAT DO YOU LIKE LEAST ABOUT YOUR TOWN?
Not as small as it used to be.
17.GREATEST ADVENTURE?
Flew to CA to spend 10 days with a guy I only spoke with on the phone.
18.MOST ROMANTIC MOMENT?
In the pool. In Florida. On our honeymoon.
19.HOW MANY PILLOWS?
Two. One folded behind one and the other sideways.
20.PETS?
Max, TJ, Heath, Colt and whatever lives in the attic.
21.THREE FAVORITE MOVIES? (THIS YEAR)
Toy Story 3, Grownups and I can't think of another one I've seen this year.
22.THREE FAVORITE MOVIES? (ALL TIME)
Drop Dead Fred, It's a Wonderful Life, Overboard
23.FAVORITE TV SHOWS (THIS YEAR)
Modern Family, Criminal Minds, The Middle, Big Bang Theory, White Collar, Psych, Royal Pains, In Plain Sight, Leverage
24.THREE FAVORITE TV SHOWS? (ALL TIME)
Laverne & Shirley, Friends, Law & Order (all but SVU - too disturbing for me)
25.LEAST FAVORITE TV SHOWS
Reality shows. The only ones I care for are Wipeout and American Idol.
26.THREE FAVORITE SONGS? (ALL TIME)
Since I'm not a huge music person, I'll say Unforgettable with Nat King and Natalie Cole (Our wedding song), anything by Aerosmith and anything by Freddie Mercury/Queen
27.THREE FAVORITE ALBUMS OR CDs?
Adam Lambert
Aerosmith
Queen
28.THREE FAVORITE MUSIC VIDEOS?
Oh jeez...I don't even remember music videos!
29.FAVORITE SINGER?
Freddy Mercury of Queen
30.FAVORITE MUSICAL GROUP?
Aerosmith
31.MUSICAL SHAME?
Huge fan of the Bee Gee's!
32.FAVORITE CELEBRITY?
Shemar Moore
33.LEAST FAVORITE CELEBRITY?
Lindsay Lohan
34.MALE STAR?
Shemar Moore
35.FEMALE STAR?
Julia Roberts
36.WORD OR PHRASE YOU OVER USE?
"What a buffoon."
37.SUPERPOWER YOU WOULD WANT?
X-ray vision
38.BODY PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS?
I have pierced ears. I have a tattoo on my right ankle with my oldest son's initials on it, a tattoo on my left ankle with all the kids' names in hearts and I just got one on Monday that is a shamrock shape with a golf club handle and base and it says "Dad" over it. My next one will be on my back!
39.IF YOU COULD WITNESS ONE EVENT IN HISTORY WHICH WOULD IT BE AND WHY WOULD YOU GO THERE?
Go to June 17, 1983 and bring my father to the doctor.
40.WHAT DO YOU THINK OTHERS ADMIRE ABOUT YOU?
My spectacular bod first and foremost, self-deprecation, caring, funny
41.WHAT DO YOU ADMIRE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm a survivor
42.WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF IF YOU COULD?
Without a doubt, be an average size person.
43.IF YOU COULD LIVE ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
WHY?
Live anywhere? Hmmm...I like where I am, but am hoping to retire to maybe South Carolina. To visit? I would like to visit Australia (and Fiji now that I have a daughter-in-law from there), England and Ireland.
44.WHAT WOULD BE YOUR LAST MEAL? (INCLUDE EVERYTHING)
Pizza, chicken strip basket from DQ, chicken fingers from FoodWorks, nachos and salsa from Chili's, Joe's meatloaf muffins
45.WHAT IS YOUR PREFERRED METHOD OF EXECUTION?
Drugs
46.WHAT LIVING PERSON WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO HAVE LUNCH WITH?
Shemar Moore
47.WHAT DEAD PERSON WOULD YOU MOST HAVE LIKED TO HAVE LUNCH WITH?
Dad
48.THREE BOOKS TO TAKE TO A DESSERT ISLAND?
Thurston House
That book by Kim something or other who lost a gazillion pounds
I want the whole James Patterson Alex Cross series.
49.THREE PEOPLE YOU KNOW TO TAKE TO A DESSERT ISLAND?
Joe and the kids (not sure what to do about Mez though!)
50.THREE WISHES? (NO FAIR WISHING FOR MORE WISHES)
Relative peace
Average size
early retirement
51.WHAT IS SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
I found a dead body.
52.SPORT YOU MOST LIKE TO WATCH?
Football or baseball
53.SPORT YOU MOST LIKE TO PARTICIPATE IN?
Couch potato'ing
54.WHAT DO YOU COLLECT?
Used to be spoons, now it's not much.
55.WHO DO YOU ADMIRE MOST IN YOUR LIFE?
Joe, he's been through hell and back and still strives to be positive
56.WHAT HISTORICAL PERIOD WOULD YOU HAVE LIKED TO LIVE IN?
50's - but with no racial issues!
57.FAVORITE MONOPOLY PIECE?
Shoe
58.FAVORITE BOARD GAMES?
Scrabble, the one Dave has that is like a countdown thingy, usually anything with Joe and/or the kids. (Don't like Monopoly or Clue)
59.SPIRIT ANIMAL?
Owl
60.FAVORITE ANIMAL?
Dog
61.BEST AND WORST PARTS OF LIVING IN THE FUTURE?
Best: I'll be retired.
Worst: I may be dead.
62.DO YOU PREFER CATS OR DOGS?
Dogs
63.WHAT WOULD BE YOUR SPICE GIRL NAME IF YOU WERE IN THE GROUP?
Unskinny Spice
64.DO YOU PREFER COKE OR PEPSI?
Diet caffeine free coke...preferrably - followed by anything else that is diet. haha
1.FULLNAME?
Nancy Ann Kennedy Mello
2.NICKNAME(S)?
Nance, Mom, Raven
3.BIRTHPLACE?
Worcester, MA
4.WEBSITE
You are there
5.FAVORITE SALAD DRESSING?
Catalina
6.FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Fudge Swirl
7.FUTURE CAREER GOALS?
Finish working here, retire.
8.PROBABLE CAREER?
Finish working here, retire.
9.FAVORITE FOOD?
Pizza, nachos, chicken fingers from FoodWorks, chicken fajita roll up at Applebee's.
10.FAVORITE DRINK? (Non-alcoholic)
Diet caffeine-free soda
11.FAVORITE SCHOOL SUBJECT?
Back then it was called Geography!
12.FAVORITE SCHOOL ACTIVITY?
Journalism (favorite teacher: Ms. Herman)
13.LEAST FAVORITE SCHOOL SUBJECT?
Geometry (I had to 'withdraw' because I just couldn't get it)
14.LEAST FAVORITE SCHOOL ACTIVITY?
Religious education
15.WHAT DO YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOUR TOWN?
I grew up here, it's what I know.
16.WHAT DO YOU LIKE LEAST ABOUT YOUR TOWN?
Not as small as it used to be.
17.GREATEST ADVENTURE?
Flew to CA to spend 10 days with a guy I only spoke with on the phone.
18.MOST ROMANTIC MOMENT?
In the pool. In Florida. On our honeymoon.
19.HOW MANY PILLOWS?
Two. One folded behind one and the other sideways.
20.PETS?
Max, TJ, Heath, Colt and whatever lives in the attic.
21.THREE FAVORITE MOVIES? (THIS YEAR)
Toy Story 3, Grownups and I can't think of another one I've seen this year.
22.THREE FAVORITE MOVIES? (ALL TIME)
Drop Dead Fred, It's a Wonderful Life, Overboard
23.FAVORITE TV SHOWS (THIS YEAR)
Modern Family, Criminal Minds, The Middle, Big Bang Theory, White Collar, Psych, Royal Pains, In Plain Sight, Leverage
24.THREE FAVORITE TV SHOWS? (ALL TIME)
Laverne & Shirley, Friends, Law & Order (all but SVU - too disturbing for me)
25.LEAST FAVORITE TV SHOWS
Reality shows. The only ones I care for are Wipeout and American Idol.
26.THREE FAVORITE SONGS? (ALL TIME)
Since I'm not a huge music person, I'll say Unforgettable with Nat King and Natalie Cole (Our wedding song), anything by Aerosmith and anything by Freddie Mercury/Queen
27.THREE FAVORITE ALBUMS OR CDs?
Adam Lambert
Aerosmith
Queen
28.THREE FAVORITE MUSIC VIDEOS?
Oh jeez...I don't even remember music videos!
29.FAVORITE SINGER?
Freddy Mercury of Queen
30.FAVORITE MUSICAL GROUP?
Aerosmith
31.MUSICAL SHAME?
Huge fan of the Bee Gee's!
32.FAVORITE CELEBRITY?
Shemar Moore
33.LEAST FAVORITE CELEBRITY?
Lindsay Lohan
34.MALE STAR?
Shemar Moore
35.FEMALE STAR?
Julia Roberts
36.WORD OR PHRASE YOU OVER USE?
"What a buffoon."
37.SUPERPOWER YOU WOULD WANT?
X-ray vision
38.BODY PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS?
I have pierced ears. I have a tattoo on my right ankle with my oldest son's initials on it, a tattoo on my left ankle with all the kids' names in hearts and I just got one on Monday that is a shamrock shape with a golf club handle and base and it says "Dad" over it. My next one will be on my back!
39.IF YOU COULD WITNESS ONE EVENT IN HISTORY WHICH WOULD IT BE AND WHY WOULD YOU GO THERE?
Go to June 17, 1983 and bring my father to the doctor.
40.WHAT DO YOU THINK OTHERS ADMIRE ABOUT YOU?
My spectacular bod first and foremost, self-deprecation, caring, funny
41.WHAT DO YOU ADMIRE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm a survivor
42.WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF IF YOU COULD?
Without a doubt, be an average size person.
43.IF YOU COULD LIVE ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
WHY?
Live anywhere? Hmmm...I like where I am, but am hoping to retire to maybe South Carolina. To visit? I would like to visit Australia (and Fiji now that I have a daughter-in-law from there), England and Ireland.
44.WHAT WOULD BE YOUR LAST MEAL? (INCLUDE EVERYTHING)
Pizza, chicken strip basket from DQ, chicken fingers from FoodWorks, nachos and salsa from Chili's, Joe's meatloaf muffins
45.WHAT IS YOUR PREFERRED METHOD OF EXECUTION?
Drugs
46.WHAT LIVING PERSON WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO HAVE LUNCH WITH?
Shemar Moore
47.WHAT DEAD PERSON WOULD YOU MOST HAVE LIKED TO HAVE LUNCH WITH?
Dad
48.THREE BOOKS TO TAKE TO A DESSERT ISLAND?
Thurston House
That book by Kim something or other who lost a gazillion pounds
I want the whole James Patterson Alex Cross series.
49.THREE PEOPLE YOU KNOW TO TAKE TO A DESSERT ISLAND?
Joe and the kids (not sure what to do about Mez though!)
50.THREE WISHES? (NO FAIR WISHING FOR MORE WISHES)
Relative peace
Average size
early retirement
51.WHAT IS SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
I found a dead body.
52.SPORT YOU MOST LIKE TO WATCH?
Football or baseball
53.SPORT YOU MOST LIKE TO PARTICIPATE IN?
Couch potato'ing
54.WHAT DO YOU COLLECT?
Used to be spoons, now it's not much.
55.WHO DO YOU ADMIRE MOST IN YOUR LIFE?
Joe, he's been through hell and back and still strives to be positive
56.WHAT HISTORICAL PERIOD WOULD YOU HAVE LIKED TO LIVE IN?
50's - but with no racial issues!
57.FAVORITE MONOPOLY PIECE?
Shoe
58.FAVORITE BOARD GAMES?
Scrabble, the one Dave has that is like a countdown thingy, usually anything with Joe and/or the kids. (Don't like Monopoly or Clue)
59.SPIRIT ANIMAL?
Owl
60.FAVORITE ANIMAL?
Dog
61.BEST AND WORST PARTS OF LIVING IN THE FUTURE?
Best: I'll be retired.
Worst: I may be dead.
62.DO YOU PREFER CATS OR DOGS?
Dogs
63.WHAT WOULD BE YOUR SPICE GIRL NAME IF YOU WERE IN THE GROUP?
Unskinny Spice
64.DO YOU PREFER COKE OR PEPSI?
Diet caffeine free coke...preferrably - followed by anything else that is diet. haha
Brief MeMe - just one answer...
1. T.V. Show: Criminal Minds
2. Book: Thurston House
3. Movie: Drop Dead Fred
4. Color: Green
5. Actor: Shemar Moore
6. Actress: Julia Roberts
7. Ice Cream Flavor: Fudge swirl
8. Drink: Diet soda
9. Animal: Dog
10. Band: Aerosmith
11. Singer: Freddy Mercury
12. Food: Pizza
13. Disney Character: Goofy
14. Girl Name: Catherine
15. Boy Name: Diego
2. Book: Thurston House
3. Movie: Drop Dead Fred
4. Color: Green
5. Actor: Shemar Moore
6. Actress: Julia Roberts
7. Ice Cream Flavor: Fudge swirl
8. Drink: Diet soda
9. Animal: Dog
10. Band: Aerosmith
11. Singer: Freddy Mercury
12. Food: Pizza
13. Disney Character: Goofy
14. Girl Name: Catherine
15. Boy Name: Diego
Monday, May 24, 2010
It's all about MEME ME!
The Me MeMe
1. What's your favorite Dr. Seuss book?
The Foot Book
2. If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?
The Cunningham's on Happy Days
3. What's the longest you've gone without sleep?
30+ hours?
4. What's your favorite Barry Manilow song?
Ready to take a chance again
5. Who's your favorite Muppet?
Kermit
6. What's the habit you're proudest of breaking?
I like to keep all my habits!
7. What's your favorite website?
Google Reader
8. What's your favorite school supply?
I don't go to school, but I work, so I'd have to say my black gel pen!
9. Who's your favorite TV attorney?
Abbie Carmichael (Law & Order - played by Angie Harmon)
10. What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles?
Connecticut for a buffet
11. What's the best bargain you've ever found at a garage sale or junk shop?
I don't remember - we don't go to them often.
12. Where were you on September 11, 2001?
Signing the papers on the house we just bought.
13. What's your favorite tree?
Anything where the leaves don't fall.
14. What's the most interesting biography you've read?
I'm not a big biography reader.
15. What do you order when you eat Chinese food?
Chicken fingers, pork fried rice, chicken soup, teriaki, sometimes boneless spareribs
16. What's the best costume you've ever worn?
I won second prize at the company party when I was dressed as a waffle!
17. What is your least favorite word?
Crotch
18. If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?
(North or South) Dakota
19. Who's your favorite bear?
Yogi Bear
20. Describe something that's happened to you for which you have no explanation.
Spider crawled into my ear
21. If you could travel anywhere in Africa, where would it be?
I'd go with Dave to help Africa
22. What did you have for lunch yesterday?
Tuna sandwich and baked Doritos
23. Where do you go for advice?
my friend Nancy
24. Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus?
Thesaurus
25. Have you ever been snorkeling? Scuba diving?
Nope
1. What's your favorite Dr. Seuss book?
The Foot Book
2. If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?
The Cunningham's on Happy Days
3. What's the longest you've gone without sleep?
30+ hours?
4. What's your favorite Barry Manilow song?
Ready to take a chance again
5. Who's your favorite Muppet?
Kermit
6. What's the habit you're proudest of breaking?
I like to keep all my habits!
7. What's your favorite website?
Google Reader
8. What's your favorite school supply?
I don't go to school, but I work, so I'd have to say my black gel pen!
9. Who's your favorite TV attorney?
Abbie Carmichael (Law & Order - played by Angie Harmon)
10. What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles?
Connecticut for a buffet
11. What's the best bargain you've ever found at a garage sale or junk shop?
I don't remember - we don't go to them often.
12. Where were you on September 11, 2001?
Signing the papers on the house we just bought.
13. What's your favorite tree?
Anything where the leaves don't fall.
14. What's the most interesting biography you've read?
I'm not a big biography reader.
15. What do you order when you eat Chinese food?
Chicken fingers, pork fried rice, chicken soup, teriaki, sometimes boneless spareribs
16. What's the best costume you've ever worn?
I won second prize at the company party when I was dressed as a waffle!
17. What is your least favorite word?
Crotch
18. If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?
(North or South) Dakota
19. Who's your favorite bear?
Yogi Bear
20. Describe something that's happened to you for which you have no explanation.
Spider crawled into my ear
21. If you could travel anywhere in Africa, where would it be?
I'd go with Dave to help Africa
22. What did you have for lunch yesterday?
Tuna sandwich and baked Doritos
23. Where do you go for advice?
my friend Nancy
24. Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus?
Thesaurus
25. Have you ever been snorkeling? Scuba diving?
Nope
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Just 'cuz - and oh boy is it a jumbled mess!
A friend of mine asked me at lunch on Thursday if I was sad. Before I could answer she then asked if I was just "thinking." I jumped on that option and said "just thinking" and left it at that.
But you know what? I am sad. I'd like to say that I don't know the reason for my sadness, but I do. Actually, I should say reasonS for my sadness.
I am basically a lazy person. Yes, I get up nearly every day and go to work, but that's out of necessity. If someone said to me "stay home", I would. Well, at least until the money ran out and we were living on the streets. LOL I do not like to exercise - let me correct that - I HATE exercising. I would rather sit and read a good book, or noodle around on the internet. I've said before and I'll say it again - I'm a TV addict. I wish it wasn't so - kind of - but I also like watching things that take my mind off of my own thoughts and feelings.
I'm sad that I don't like to exercise because I know that exercise supposedly makes you feel better and also gets you fit (naturally), but I just don't even want to. I'm sad that I can talk in my head all I want that I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, I want to be thinner...but, apparently I'm not willing to do the work to get it. I want to wake up and have the mindset of someone that hasn't the psychological issues I have. I want to be "normal."
A friend of mine has a daughter who is not as healthy and trim as she would like. Her other daughter is a bean pole, but not the other one. I told her that under no circumstances should she say the following phrases to her child:
"Don't worry, I'll tell you when you are too heavy."
"You aren't fat, you are pleasingly plump."
"I'm going to call you Crisco - you know, fat in the can."
"You have good understanding - you know, sturdy legs."
I heard one or more of those phrases pretty much on a daily basis while growing up. I can certainly sympathize with my friend that she's worried about her daughter. She loves her and wants her to be healthy and have a healthy relationship with food. I told her the best to do is just keep minimal 'good' snacks in the house...like junk food...but don't ban them all together because that's not showing her how to handle the life choices that come to pass as we get older.
Bottom line - you cut down on what you eat, eat healthier things and exercise and you will lose weight and end up fit and trim. What is so difficult about this equation? Why can't I wrap my mind around that and just do it? Food has always been a comfort to me. I had a relatively good shape until my father died and then I got pregnant two months later. Since I wasn't with the "father" aka sperm donor. I wasn't working and sat at home and ate because I was sad, because I was mad, because I thought my Dad would've been mad at me and because I was living with my mother, again, even though shortly before my father died, they had separated - life was good for those 7 weeks. My Dad left us a note a couple weeks into his separated life (before he headed in to work) and wrote "today is the first day of the rest of my life"...I see or hear that phrase and it instantly takes me back to that time. I think of what my Dad never got to do, got to see, got to meet. A part of me is relieved that he didn't have to go through the pain and aggravation of every day life, but boy, do I miss that man.
I would love for him to have met my kids...especially my oldest. He is SOOO much like him. I'd like to think that he is "looking down on us" and he's "seen my kids" but I don't think that is something I believe in any more. I used to and maybe if Dad had been around, I'd still believe.
I've been working since I was 14. I'm now 45. 34 years. In the grand scheme of things and when compared with other people, that is not a long time. But, to me, it's a long time. From 1985 until 1995 I was a single mother and had to work if I wanted to get anywhere in life. I've been at my job now for more than 21 years. I love my boss, he's easy to get along with and he's smart as anything - and his office is in another state. It's easy to have a great relationship with a boss who is a 2 1/2 hour drive away. I do, however, think that we would get along fine if I were in his office or vice versa. I would love to not have to work. Not like "oh, take a week off" type of thing, but just knowing that there is nothing I need to get up at 4 a.m. for and hurry out the door to get to work for 6 a.m. I've often said that if I took 2 weeks off in a row, I think I'd end up quitting because that is just too long a time to get used to not getting up and leaving the house. But, my mind knows that I have to work because otherwise we'd be in the poor house. But that doesn't stop me from looking at condo's in Myrtle Beach or down in FL - even if they are like 500 square feet. I don't care. It would mean that I could relax, for the first time in 34 years.
I keep a lot to myself. Someone will ask me how I am doing and I say that I am fine. Do you know why I say I'm fine? So I don't have to listen to "helpful" advice on how to make myself feel better. My brain is not wired that way. I have an extremely cheerful, fun personality on the outside...what is on the inside is a different story. I have thoughts in my head that I can't say because they would hurt someone or they would get someone angry - not anyone in particular, but just someone. So, it stays inside. I go to a shrink...he says "how are things?" You know what I say "things are fine." I am on two types of psych medication to help me not go in to the depths of despair and doing the work that I do, I see some people on disability who take way less psych drugs than I do! How can that be, I ask myself? I just want to say to them, 'buck up asshole, get to work because if I can do it with my highest dosage of medications available, so can you.' Yet some people abuse the system that way. They "think" they are disabled. They are not. Oh sure there are some legitimate people with legitimate issues and maybe I have become cynical over time, but it just galls me the way people take advantage of the "system." What makes me even sadder is that I asked my shrink if he ever saw me not having to take medicine since I had read about people that stopped taking it and did fine. He said no that he does not see me not taking medication to help me get through the day. That made me sad.
And before my husband reads this and starts to assume things...this is not about him...he has 2 fake hips and a fake knee and he does more for this house than anyone I know. He can't do things he'd like to do, but he does the best he can and I do love him for trying to do everything!
so, after just this rambling crap above, the bottom line is that I am sad. I am fat. I hate to be fat. Apparently I hate to exercise or diet more than I hate to be fat. I wonder if the kids or Joe are embarrassed because I am fat. I know I am. I want to wake up with someone else's willpower - why can't I?
Just random thoughts over the course of a couple of days...bottom line = I don't like myself.
But you know what? I am sad. I'd like to say that I don't know the reason for my sadness, but I do. Actually, I should say reasonS for my sadness.
I am basically a lazy person. Yes, I get up nearly every day and go to work, but that's out of necessity. If someone said to me "stay home", I would. Well, at least until the money ran out and we were living on the streets. LOL I do not like to exercise - let me correct that - I HATE exercising. I would rather sit and read a good book, or noodle around on the internet. I've said before and I'll say it again - I'm a TV addict. I wish it wasn't so - kind of - but I also like watching things that take my mind off of my own thoughts and feelings.
I'm sad that I don't like to exercise because I know that exercise supposedly makes you feel better and also gets you fit (naturally), but I just don't even want to. I'm sad that I can talk in my head all I want that I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, I want to be thinner...but, apparently I'm not willing to do the work to get it. I want to wake up and have the mindset of someone that hasn't the psychological issues I have. I want to be "normal."
A friend of mine has a daughter who is not as healthy and trim as she would like. Her other daughter is a bean pole, but not the other one. I told her that under no circumstances should she say the following phrases to her child:
"Don't worry, I'll tell you when you are too heavy."
"You aren't fat, you are pleasingly plump."
"I'm going to call you Crisco - you know, fat in the can."
"You have good understanding - you know, sturdy legs."
I heard one or more of those phrases pretty much on a daily basis while growing up. I can certainly sympathize with my friend that she's worried about her daughter. She loves her and wants her to be healthy and have a healthy relationship with food. I told her the best to do is just keep minimal 'good' snacks in the house...like junk food...but don't ban them all together because that's not showing her how to handle the life choices that come to pass as we get older.
Bottom line - you cut down on what you eat, eat healthier things and exercise and you will lose weight and end up fit and trim. What is so difficult about this equation? Why can't I wrap my mind around that and just do it? Food has always been a comfort to me. I had a relatively good shape until my father died and then I got pregnant two months later. Since I wasn't with the "father" aka sperm donor. I wasn't working and sat at home and ate because I was sad, because I was mad, because I thought my Dad would've been mad at me and because I was living with my mother, again, even though shortly before my father died, they had separated - life was good for those 7 weeks. My Dad left us a note a couple weeks into his separated life (before he headed in to work) and wrote "today is the first day of the rest of my life"...I see or hear that phrase and it instantly takes me back to that time. I think of what my Dad never got to do, got to see, got to meet. A part of me is relieved that he didn't have to go through the pain and aggravation of every day life, but boy, do I miss that man.
I would love for him to have met my kids...especially my oldest. He is SOOO much like him. I'd like to think that he is "looking down on us" and he's "seen my kids" but I don't think that is something I believe in any more. I used to and maybe if Dad had been around, I'd still believe.
I've been working since I was 14. I'm now 45. 34 years. In the grand scheme of things and when compared with other people, that is not a long time. But, to me, it's a long time. From 1985 until 1995 I was a single mother and had to work if I wanted to get anywhere in life. I've been at my job now for more than 21 years. I love my boss, he's easy to get along with and he's smart as anything - and his office is in another state. It's easy to have a great relationship with a boss who is a 2 1/2 hour drive away. I do, however, think that we would get along fine if I were in his office or vice versa. I would love to not have to work. Not like "oh, take a week off" type of thing, but just knowing that there is nothing I need to get up at 4 a.m. for and hurry out the door to get to work for 6 a.m. I've often said that if I took 2 weeks off in a row, I think I'd end up quitting because that is just too long a time to get used to not getting up and leaving the house. But, my mind knows that I have to work because otherwise we'd be in the poor house. But that doesn't stop me from looking at condo's in Myrtle Beach or down in FL - even if they are like 500 square feet. I don't care. It would mean that I could relax, for the first time in 34 years.
I keep a lot to myself. Someone will ask me how I am doing and I say that I am fine. Do you know why I say I'm fine? So I don't have to listen to "helpful" advice on how to make myself feel better. My brain is not wired that way. I have an extremely cheerful, fun personality on the outside...what is on the inside is a different story. I have thoughts in my head that I can't say because they would hurt someone or they would get someone angry - not anyone in particular, but just someone. So, it stays inside. I go to a shrink...he says "how are things?" You know what I say "things are fine." I am on two types of psych medication to help me not go in to the depths of despair and doing the work that I do, I see some people on disability who take way less psych drugs than I do! How can that be, I ask myself? I just want to say to them, 'buck up asshole, get to work because if I can do it with my highest dosage of medications available, so can you.' Yet some people abuse the system that way. They "think" they are disabled. They are not. Oh sure there are some legitimate people with legitimate issues and maybe I have become cynical over time, but it just galls me the way people take advantage of the "system." What makes me even sadder is that I asked my shrink if he ever saw me not having to take medicine since I had read about people that stopped taking it and did fine. He said no that he does not see me not taking medication to help me get through the day. That made me sad.
And before my husband reads this and starts to assume things...this is not about him...he has 2 fake hips and a fake knee and he does more for this house than anyone I know. He can't do things he'd like to do, but he does the best he can and I do love him for trying to do everything!
so, after just this rambling crap above, the bottom line is that I am sad. I am fat. I hate to be fat. Apparently I hate to exercise or diet more than I hate to be fat. I wonder if the kids or Joe are embarrassed because I am fat. I know I am. I want to wake up with someone else's willpower - why can't I?
Just random thoughts over the course of a couple of days...bottom line = I don't like myself.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Day 30: Whomever you find most attractive in this world
In "this" world? As opposed to...? hahaha Needless to say I will go with my own husband - why else would I want to be with him? He's funny, smart, gentle, kind and has happy eyes and a smile that is awesome. :) Here he is most recently with our oldest son. :)
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